Those were the days

I have just uploaded a photo of Cesky and her Dada (shown with this post). It’s one of our first photographs together. Seeing it again made me think about those days when she was just a few months old.

Cesky’s turning 11 months on Saturday. Gosh, how time flies … and how fast money escapes my wallet nowadays. No matter how many times I stop myself from thinking—and saying negative things—about the cost of bringing up a child, it just keeps popping up.

Perhaps the only comfort I get is the thought that it’s all worth it. Last night, while she was sleeping, I whispered to Cesky these words: “Do you know how much Dada and Mama loves you, anak? Let me tell you … We love you forever, we’ll like you for always. As long as we’re living, our baby you’ll be.”

And then I wept. It hurts so bad knowing you can’t give your child everything. I can’t see how some parents can leave their children at home, despite the pressing need to earn cash. Maybe this is the reason why I’m having such a hard time giving her what she deserves. I don’t know. I guess it’s just the way it is.

Francesca Jadzia Majadillas Tan, Day 3

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